Friday, November 7, 2014

Heart Broken,

    What a day yesterday was , I have come to find  that one of these social media conglomerates has become a pain in my side .But , through it all I shall will move on . I will say this first , One has FACEBOOK for staying in touch with children that have left home , for family member that are far away, for friends that one can not see everyday . I have  found it a place to stay in touch in some moronic way. I too have fell victim to its ease of being able to see post or picture that an absent family member and friend that I miss may  put up , As a way  One can correspond with by liking or making comments back and forth or what not . A place to see and  steal a glimpse at people that have been ripped out of Ones life. 
     But , I am sad and worn out , I am tired and  I am heart broken and I am left unknowing of results of yesterday and  the day before and the day before that . I hate that Facebook has become a place where some go and miscommunicate .  Like it is easier to go there and not know what's going on and miss read and interpret feelings and emotions instead of staying in touch by phone or letter , by card or box . It has become easier to go there and  be distant with each other . It has become easier  to be Hurt because One feeling left out of something  or Angry  because One doesn't know what going on. It is easier to be Frustrated because, One feels Helpless  for reason such as , perhaps they can't be somewhere  or with someone when there is an Illness or a Death ,or a Birthday, or a Holiday, what have you? So,it is easier to feel Isolated and Alone then it is to pick up a phone and find out for Oneself . 
   And yes, One may encounter hurt feeling by others that may pick up the phone because ,they have not heard from you in what may seem to be months or years even. But, One can also achieve that same misunderstanding when you text them after said months and or years even due to being so ''Busy''. They are hurt because you haven't called and messaged .
    When did it become easier to be Hurt and Angry ?
    When did we lose touch as a Family, As Human Beings?
    When did we lose the ability of making things personal? 
    Why do we find it harder to forgive the misunderstandings created on these social networks  ? 
When will love once again be enough to span the distance and bridge the gap between one another ? I am ready for this Peace and being able to start to Heal one another .To grow past all of hurt and pain that we feel towards each other due to the misunderstandings and once again be whole and happy. For Peace . I dont know what tomorrow will bring . I hope understanding . I am told time heals all wounds I pray to the Goddess of Light and Love that this if true . Why must we  hurt each other, when we ourselves or hurting ? When did we as human beings become so busy that we can not even pick up a phone ? Or write a letter  ?   I go other places now  to make contact with like minds because Facebook has caused me so much grief and sorrow due to the fact that other have sent me text messages that family members are either dying or dead ,Or it is a place to have hurt feeling sprawled out for the whole world to see . It has become a place for distance .And I  am no longer happy here in my own skin does to misconceptions left from these cold social networks. We have become  infected with so sort of thing  ,Heck ? I dont know . Something ! that has changed us and made us hard . 
    How do we go back ? 
    How can we fix what is broken ? 
    How can we mend all the wounds that we have conflicted on ourselves and those that we care so much for ? I could say I love you a million times , I could say  I'm sorry ,But does that help the Hurt, the Anger, the Frustration, the Helplessness, the Isolation ?  When will we no longer be too busy to reach out to one another ?

Social Media Rant ,

What a day yesterday was ,
     I have come to find out that one of these social media conglomerate has  become a pain in my side , But through it all I will move on . But this first , One has Facebook for staying in touch with children that have left home ,Family that may be far away .I found it a place to stay in touch in some moronic way. I to fell victim to its ease of disconnection . Being able to see post that they put up as One way to  corresponded with said family or friend ,away to span the distance to stay in touch in what has become busy lives , by liking and what not .
    A place to see a steal a glimpse at people that have been ripped out of Ones life. 
   But , I am sad and worn out , tired and heart broken and left unknowing of results of yesterday and today . I hate that Facebook has become a place where that is the only means of  communication . Like it is easier to go there and not know what's going on and miss communicate feelings and emotions instead of staying in touch by phone or letter , by card or box. It has become easier to be distant . Easier to be hurt and angry, because those that are "Too busy''  end up getting  their feelings hurt, because they see something and don't going on and it is easier to fly off the handle about something they know nothing about because they are too busy to pick a phone.  
     When did we lose touch as Human Beings ?
    When did we become so busy that human contact is now becoming extinct?
     Where did contact and siveal communication go ?
      When do we forgive? 
When will love once again be enough ? I am ready for Peace and being able to Heal.To grow past this and once again be whole and happy. For you and for me .For humankind . Why most people is hurt each other . When did we a humans become so busy that we can not even pick you a phone ? Or write a letter  ?   I came to Google+ to make contact with like minds because Facebook has drama that infects what use to be all the sane people I new a know its like they have been infected with so sort of ,Heck ? I dont know . Something! that has rotted their their souls and made them hard . Whats? up with that ? 

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

A broken Heart,

My Daughter Cherokee , has been battling an illness for sometime now and they are looking for the cause ,  with no luck so far . But, they have actually just started to take a more serious look . I want my daughter to be happy . I mean who knows what’s is in store for her with this . And she was so looking forward to  being able to finish a job all the way through from star to finish  .And she has shown up to that place being so sick to the point of vomiting and she pushed on not taking her well being in consideration and she has been  trampled on by customers from that stupid Spooky Woods. She took pride in not missing a day even after being fallen upon she showed up the next day  .  She has scared in the cold just like  many others to be a part of something bigger than her sickness . And through it all she got up and went to that place .That was something she loved to do . And I am proud of her strength that is a part of her I had not seen until now . She made so many friends . And someone called her last night and told her that her spot was removed due to her not being in her spot or something like that ,  when , she was taking a break ! She had  2 more days left until she would of  finished .And they took that from her . . She is crushed. Its like all the life has been pulled from her . That stupid job made her feel normal apart of something . I try to be a peaceful person but I am finding it hard to be peaceful right now . I don’t know what is in store for my daughter a long happy life I hope. Or a brief one  filled with life and adventure . We wont know until we know . I just wanted her to be happy in this time of uncertainty that  she is going through. She needed that . And the heartless staff even unfriended  her on face book making her feel even worse .Why would they do that ?  She is sick and they have no idea what they have done . It is hard to believe that people are that  careless that they can crush a spirit with the click of a mouse  . She pushed herself to accomplish this and they just took it away from her . My heart breaks

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Canning

 I have been canning like crazy . I received a caner for Christmas and after I have gotten the hang of it I have canned my heart out . From Tomato Juice to ,Tomatoes , Pickles, Peppers, Chicken noodle soup , Beans . Gosh, just what ever I can , CAN . I do . I find it so much more satisfying to know exactly I am feeding my family , and neighbors . lol  I grow it and can it or freeze it . I find it opening up a whole new taste pallet for me and my whole family . Healthier the better and I save so much money not having to buy canned foods at the grocery stores . I find myself thinking about what things I can plant in my gardens that I can put to good use  in my pantry . This year I have an abundance of Tomatoes but I have found out that I have many friends that grow gardens and we trade out what one has for what one doesn't have so It is working out very well . Next year will only get better .  

I am so proud of my Tomatoes .I can not believe how big they are getting these are where the big Yellow Tomatoes came from they are lower in acid I here they taste so sweet awesome for juice .
Huge Tomato Plants
I am so proud of myself . Just to be doing something so great for my Family and friends.


 Second Batch Pick                    
Tomatoes
Peppers and Carrots

The Peppers and Carrots and Onions I found on 

the internet.

I have been making my own cooking oils for several years . 
 I love my new way to 
feed my family . I say new way because It is new to me.
Italian beans 



Sunday, April 6, 2014

What the Heck ???

Well , I finally put some plants the garden the day my Father died . April 1 st . It has been away to keep busy . With not being able to see family is is extremely hard to loss family . I will be going home for this .I haven't been home in ..? Well. 26 years . Crazy . Dude! I was just in at the calender just a second ago and I looked down at AND SAID ''Dude !!'' we have a wedding to go to today !.. and I took a closer look at the date . It said . Saturday ...!!! Omg ! We missed it . I feel just horrible. Just horrible . I am such a sucky friend . :( 

            I tried calling but , Crap its 8:30 in the morning , Than I was and even worse person for calling on her honeymoon . Man will me father passing away this week I have been all to crap. So to speak .I hope she can find it in her heart to forgive me ,Heck it 's an us thing . He didn't go either . I guess if he's not sweating it I shouldn't either . Right ? 

 And with that said I am going to just have to breathe and go on with my day. I can't fix it now . I call her when I come back from the funeral in Pa. I'll take her some flowers? Or something . I'm just lost and confused right now I can't be so critical on Ones self . 


                                                 Gracious Mother Earth Goddess
                                                                please grant me 
                                   Strength I need to great through my  endeavors 
                And allow me to give peace where needed to my Family and Friends . 
                                                    Blessed be to the Goddess .


Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Phone Blogging ....

Blogging from the cell phone.
          I just thought I would touch base . I have been working on my B.O.S. ,  working in the yard . I have a few new plants to put in the garden we just need to put some nutrients in the soil first the ground should be ready by this weekend . In the mean time I started some new seedlings, hopefully to sprout in 10 to 12 days. I have been working on some new designs for earrings and bracelets.  I need to put together  something diet wise I would like lose about 20 to 25 pounds this Summer. I think working in the gardens will help out a lot . Lets face it though I am an awesome cook. Too funny.