What the Heck ???

Well , I finally put some plants the garden the day my Father died . April 1 st . It has been away to keep busy . With not being able to see family is is extremely hard to loss family . I will be going home for this .I haven't been home in ..? Well. 26 years . Crazy . Dude! I was just in at the calender just a second ago and I looked down at AND SAID ''Dude !!'' we have a wedding to go to today !.. and I took a closer look at the date . It said . Saturday ...!!! Omg ! We missed it . I feel just horrible. Just horrible . I am such a sucky friend . :( 

            I tried calling but , Crap its 8:30 in the morning , Than I was and even worse person for calling on her honeymoon . Man will me father passing away this week I have been all to crap. So to speak .I hope she can find it in her heart to forgive me ,Heck it 's an us thing . He didn't go either . I guess if he's not sweating it I shouldn't either . Right ? 

 And with that said I am going to just have to breathe and go on with my day. I can't fix it now . I call her when I come back from the funeral in Pa. I'll take her some flowers? Or something . I'm just lost and confused right now I can't be so critical on Ones self . 

                                                 Gracious Mother Earth Goddess

                                                                please grant me 

                                   Strength I need to great through my  endeavors 

                And allow me to give peace where needed to my Family and Friends . 

                                                    Blessed be to the Goddess .