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What next?: Why is it that when  I can't sleep (damn demons ke...: Why is it that when  I can't sleep (damn demons kept me up all night haunting my dreams) and I finally get up take a  hot bath. I try to be...

Why is it that when  I can't sleep (damn demons kept me up all night haunting my dreams) and I finally get up take a  hot bath. I try to be quite so not to disturb my boyfriend  or his mother who ,Yes is on a ventilator in the living room . I try so hard to not bother anyone and when he gets disturbed by coming out of the bath room its as if I threw a bomb in the  bedroom . But, when he wakes up every morning ,on goes the television and then he gets in the shower ,What the heck hes in the shower why does he need to have the T.V. on? I have a Doctors appointment this morning because I have a fractured right elbow . I sometimes feel as if I to walk on egg shells around here . I do so much taking care of his mother while he is at work , Keeping the house clean and up . I am over whelmed being cook , nurse ,house keeper . I don't know who the hell I am anymore . I feel as if I get no respect . Over Easter some of their family came and wanted to know if I thought she might want to go to a nursing home back in Boone where she came from . 1st off why the hell are you asking me?I am not related to anyone here . It isn't up to me .Okay maybe they were asking me because I do have a fractured arm and it is hard on me but still its not up to me . I try to do the best I can .but I feel like it doesn't matter . I was just asked what I was doing and I said venting I mean if I say anything to him try to talk about how I am feeling I get the  ''I am bitching or complaining look '' so now I type to space . So  no one gets hurt except me because I feel as if who cares as long as I take care of his mom . I know I said I would do it  in December to get her out of the hospital  but I like an idiot thought that we would get help from his family .... I know stupid right .?.